She's got her own taste.. Thats why i love her

I'm so sorry for leaving this blog to rot coz i haven't got a chance to actually sit down on a chair with a cup of tea and biscuits and actually spend time posting really. In other words, i'm busy.

Few days ago, i quitted my job at Bossini and now is on a job hunt to get a better one. I tried applying at Giordano originals, Converse and Swensen's. I wasn't that confident that they would employ me and by the looks of it, they really need someone who could work a long period. They also explained that if i don't go for further education, i'll probably be going to serve the country by the mid of next year.

The interviewer at Converse told me that they would place me as a part time staff there and i'll only be called whenever they need me. I was disappointed but it was better than nothing.

This coming Friday is Hari Raya Aidiladha!! And that means, it'll be more fun with the sheeps!! Haha! I dunno why whenever this Hari Raya is near, i would get this overwhelming eager feeling right near my stomach that i couldn't control. Hahah!! Compared to last year, this year al-amin has become more systematic and more on-task. Reason being, although we have to do the korban, in addition to that we have to do our friday prayers too! So those who registers to help out will be given a pass in which they will be given some token for helping out. We also have to attend some of the meetings and gatherings when needed.

I heard that the korban sheep's will be shipped here by tmr night so i may need to be there to be the Sheppard. (is that correct?) Really can't wait to have a good feel of their woolly bodies! Ahhh!! I also hear that the jerseys that they're gonna give out this year is like some kinda dark yellow? I know my favourite colour is yellow but i dunno what its gonna turn out to be...

'N' level results are just around the corner so i have to make some plans beforehand like, if i fail badly, whose house would i go to or jump down which building or get run down by which kind of car model... Hafta plan ahead!!

Bossini

I'm currently trying to rest my head after a day of fucked up work. Every fucking day i got fucking work, no rest. Just work to keep my fucking mind occupied during this fucking holiday while waiting for the fucked up results. Yea bitch, i swear! So what? I dont fucking care if you're hurt listening to me swear or i know what the fuck is sarcasm you fucking shit.

AS you may fucking KNOW, the world is already a fucked up place to be in.
WAr, Natural-fucking-disasters, and all kinds of fucking bullshits that has been published, written or even said for the last fucking few years but no one decides to put their fucking grown ass down on the chair to listen.

All you fucking assholes are blinded. Blinded because even though the world is fucking melting, none of you fucking cares do you?? Busy with your fucking job, your fucking hobby, your fucking interest... Every fucking thing. You guys are too pre-fucking-occupied with your daily that you treasure soooo fucking much that if God decides to take that gift from you, you dunno a fucking thing to do. Fucking assholes. Why i curse soo much you might ask? Well, glad you fucking asked. But even if you don't, i'm gonna tell you anyway.

Coz i'm fucking angry thats why. Not because of my work, or results for my N levels. Coz you fuckers out there are not thinking thats why fucking assholes! yea!! Assholes. Look around you, the news, the papers, the fucking forums or whatever fucking shit there is!! The world is dying! Repent your fucking sins!!! dont think you'll live long in this temporary place. For my fucking friends who named themselves muslims, PRAY!!! REPENT!! BEG FOR FORGIVENESS ASSHOLES!!!!! I'm in no fucking position to say all this but at least listen when people talk to you. Not because i have alot of fucking spare time to waste so i intend on wasting it on you, its because i want all of you to realise. Damn... So fucking hard to get it straight to your mind. You can spare your fucking sweet time to visit FACE-fucking-BOOK, the fucking FuckTube, game webs, download webs... Well, spare some of your fucking time to see what the fuck is going on in this world la fucknuts!!!!!

For fucking example,
http://www.chris-floyd.com/war/
Thats a fucking start.

I know by now, you'd be fucking mad at me and wish you could beat me up or spit on my grave or kill me or sth, by all means, DO IT. I don't fucking care.

(I know what i can't be when i grow up, a PREACHER)

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i got this text from a friend. Dunno what he meant by that but it'll come to me someday.

I'm feeling so hot right now, i dunno why. Maybe its because i was looking at naked women pictures and i got turned on and i blushed badly i guess..
I always do that whenever i feel shy, even when i'm making out with my girl i'll blush badly.
Crazy stuff.

i'm still waiting for the call from chris. He said he'd call me on monday but i've never heard from him since that friday when i went for the interview. You see, i went to apply for a job at Bossini and went to the interview last friday. i did quite well and answered most of his questions correctly and calmly. But he asked me a question which i did not really how to answer, "How do you define philosophy?". I was more nervous than shocked when he asked that. i didnt know what to say. so all i said was "uhh... nope." in a kiddish way. Sheesh...

If all else fails and i still don't get the call from him, i think i'll go look for another job. i mean, there are lots and lots of jobs out there where i can choose from but its a matter of whether i wanna go for it or not. Maybe i'll go look with my friend this wed and hopefully get one. Again, i wanna go for a full time job.

Talking about jobs and money and life, kinda made me forget about my religion. i still don't know how to recite the Quran, dunno how to pray well, out of a hundred percent, i only understand a speck of dust from it. There's still soo much to learn but i'm not making the effort at all.

I come to understand that working and finding money for the family is also a reward but i feel empty without then knowledge of my own religion. i should start going to madrasah or go to other people's house and learn how to recite the Quran. Whenever i think of going back to malaysia nad visit my bio father's mom, i feel so ashamed coz from 5 years old and up until now, i still do not possess the knowledge.

I think i'm getting hotter and i don't think its because i'm horny. I think i might fall sick or something, better drink lots and lots of water tonight. Bear in mind; you're empty if you do not try.