My final song..

Sigh.. Its nearly a month in the year 2008.
Many things have happened this 31 days of this year.
Good things, bad things.. all inside this 512mb space in my head.

I remembered the first time i went to my secondary school.
HAHA! It was mad. I was like a lost sheep in a farm somewhere.
Then i fell in love with a girl. i didnt know that she has a boyfriend outside.
I asked her for stead, a few weeks later, i got to know that she has a boy.
Then i was like, WTF!

So, i stayed away from her. But at that moment, i didnt know that one of my classmate actually like me.
She was tomboyish at first.. but changed soon after.
What i mean by change is that, last time, she used to keep shortx3 hair.
Now, she's like an ice-cream, waiting to be eaten.


So, i got to know, thru her mouth herself, that she liked me.
Then i was like, ohhhh... man... Lets do it!
So we were a couple, not for long.
I broke up with her like abt a week or so?
After that, my god sister cried. I seriously dunno why.

HAHA! But the funny part is, although we have all this gadgets called a handphone, internet and such, we still sticked to old school style..

..........

THE LETTER..


Throught all my sec one & sec two, she's always been my girlfriend. Well, not a long term one..
just a play2 one.
Then there's this "One fine day," I got serious with her.
hmm.. if i can recall correctly, its 3rd of September 2007.
I called her up. A whole lot of things was on my mind. I was ready.
We talked. An hour or so.. but yeah. It was worth it.

When i confessed to her, i actually cried. like wow.
I cant help it. I was soo in love with her.
I was mad about her. Up till now, im still.
One thing for sure is that, she is cute.
Deny all she want, she is still cute..
She accepted me. I actually borrowed $3.70 from her.
(didnt really intend to return anyway. HAHA!)
I asked her, "Do u want me to return u the money that i lend from u?"
Then she said, "hahaha! no need.. no need.."

HAHA! It was like, one of the happiest day of my life.
I was serious with our relationship(kinda). I didnt want to let her go.
We hold each other hands, hugged, kissed..
All the wonderful things, we had with each other.

Until one fateful day..
1st of November 2007.
She asked for a breakup.
She mentioned abt me not being serious enough with my studies.
Well, it was true.. i was slacking the whole of the year(2007)

Come on man.. Where in the world can u find a smart-with-specticles-little girl?
Maybe there are afew.. i dunno.
I really have made her dissapointed.
So, i accepted her request. i know i was gonna regret it, but, Yeah..
This few weeks, i have been asking her for a chance.

Then i think to myself, she have been giving me tooo much chance.
Why should she take me back again?

She rejected me, saying that this is not a right time for her yet.
Im not blaming her? She's a smart girl.
Maybe her parents dont want to see their money gone to waste. Who knows?
But im sure not gonna disturb her again.

I have been ignoring her these few days..
I dont like that. I want to get close to her. Dunno how.
I dont like her.. not yet.. im waiting for the right moment.
Meantime, i wanna have fun, mix around with people, do some crazy things..

Im leaving for a Leadership Camp, organised by the school.
I was thinking that i could relief my stress by going to this camp.
After i signed the concent form and all..
I found out that she is going to this camp.

Ahhh.. Whatever laa.. im going to this camp to distress myself,
and show the world that im not a kid, im a man.. A Leader.

HAHA! enough crap. I must get going.
Gotta get ready my items. Havent started packing yet.
It will be a 3 days, 2 night camp.
I'll be coming back on Monday.

I'll update my blog after i came home from the camp.
That is, wether i have the mood to do it or not..

P.S. This is a rrealllyy loong blog. read it.

it shouldnt turn out to be like this.. AT ALL.

Monday, 28/01 18:00.

I was bored.
I took out my handphone and looked at the time.
It was gonna be 14:00 soon.
I quickly packed my things and sat down on the chair quietly.

The bell rang.

I dashed out of the classroom and waited for my friend near the school's back gate.
I was not that long, about a minute or so.

After that, we went to Bukit Merah's KFC to have a meal.
I ate the Zinger Student's Meal.
I was the first one to finish it. (Haha)

About an hour later, we went to CK to buy some stuff.
I didnt buy anything but i browse thru some things.
Im going for the leadership camp on this Friday, 1st of Feb.
But i havent even packed my things yet.

I came back home at about 17:00 and my mom is already fucked up.
BTW, that is not the only sin that i did today.
There's alot more that i dont wanna talk about.

I think i will end here, coz im doing nothing but uploading my blog rite now.

I hope there is still time for me to live.
Until then, Goodbye.. Love.

No wonder...

Its seriouslybeen a loooong time since i've updated this little blog of mine. Its not that i dont want to, but, i've been busy with stuff..

hmm.. where should i start..
Well, i bought a new PSP slim for myself about 2 weeks ago.
it looked something like this,


i dunno wether its white? or sliver?
Whatever the case is, at least i have a PSP for myself. (yaaay!!)

Hmm.. the next thing im gonna talk abt is 'my love life'.
My best friend and me are both in love with the same girl. the problem is, she doesnt want to have a boyfriend at this moment yet.
So, we tried our luck, thinking that she would fall for our 'charms'. But in the end, she didnt buy it. I was a little sad, but got over it quite slowly. On the other hand, i didnt hear a word from my best friend.

I dont want to elaborate any further, so.. i'll leave it as that.(I dont want to hurt my friends feelings.)

I wanna dedicate this song to my best friend, who is.. i dunno where he is, he failed to win her heart but atleast he tried right?

"Dude, dont be sad aite? u can still get to her. Just gotta wait. Its like talking a bus. if u missed the first bus, there's still the second one. I dunno what it meant, but yea.. just apply it in ur life. This is a song for u."



P.S. i dont understand what the F*** the last part says. so anything, dont ask me.

The Tale of The Rooster And The Turtle

I love my life. Every morning i wake up, there's food for me to eat.
Still, I must appreciate what God had given me. Good or Bad.
Love my family the most! They have been with me throughout my 15 years.
You may think im craz-e-e, but this is what i feel tonight. Zabid and
Zhuliestar, by two BESTIES and Seng Jie & Kevin, my close brothers.


Can anyone treat me to a bowl of Ramen? Maybe not a treat laa..
You just have to accompany me to Ramen Ten. Anyone will do, Girls, Boys... I will
Accept anyone. Just be my company, thats all. Maybe i will treat u instead.
Me like STARBUCKS :) The drinks there are delicious. Out of this World.
Back?To?School? is fun. I get to meet alot of new friends.

Ahh.. The Good Times..

2nd of January... ahh.. the first day of my secondary 3 life.. FUCK!
we had to do some freaking test!! it was great, while it lasted i mean.. nothing much happened.. the teachers talked about target setting and stuff.. then school ended at about 1330 hrs.

i went to eat at my school canteen. its been like, 2 months? since i ate the schools food. it was great. after that, i head on to the library, to see some old timer there. THE LIBRARIAN! WooHoo!! she is one "chick" man.. u can fall for her laa.. :)

then from 2pm till 4.30pm,

SILENCE...

me and my friends just sat inside the library for that period of time.
nothing happened.

then we went home :)

to be continued...