backwards, forward..

My aunties just left the house. They came by to look at my little sister, chatted with my mom for a while and left to carry on with their daily lives. Nice of them to come over. Ok, lets start.

Monday to Friday.

Went for an Elective Module organized by the school for the whole week. We were given 3 choices of modules mainly: Food & Beverages, Hairstyling and Music.
I chose the third one. I dont have a taste for dressing other people's hair since i dont even know how to style mine and i already went for the F&B course last year.

The Music course was totally awesome, i have to say. I didnt payed too much attention in the class as i was awed by everything that was in there. We were taught on how to create our own lyrics, rhythm and the best part of it all is that we get to record our own songs! Coolio or what?

Apart from the Elective Module, there was also a talk from one of the lectures from ITE on how to choose our path wisely. There are many choices to choose from but i've made up my mind and i'll stick to it. There were also booths set up by the lectures from the Poly too. Unfortunately, i wasnt able to see much of it but i did manage to grab a brochure to read.

Today.

Ms Ng asked me to help her on Speech Day. The great thing is, it feels good helping someone but the downside is, i have to dance Rock n Roll on stage, with a very short partner, in front of the whole school on Speech Day. Although i dont show much, i kinda like dancing or acting up on stage. But not Rock n Roll... Argh..
Im not sure when is speech day gonna come but before it does, i have to do my best to DANCE LIKE A LITTLE SWAN!!!!! The rehearsal is on next wed. Groan...

Well, that summarizes everything that i've done this week. I have to start memorizing my term 2's timestable soon. Math: 4 days in a row! Will i be able to concentrate? SS in the morning! Will i be able to stay awake? PhyEd on Monday?! argh!!

Final words:

The closer you get, the more secrets you uncover. The more you know about the real person, the more you wished you never met 'em. Ashamed and scared, the only solution that you think will resolve everything is not talking about the secret. But you're wrong, you're only making yourself hated by others. Haha!

I look fat in that picture, CHANGE!!

Lets see, a week of holiday is gonna come to an end, i haven't finished my math homework yet, ate chicken rice and now im having a stomachache.

i realised that i didnt use the camcorder that i had borrowed from Haris. Now its just sitting on the side of my bag, motionless. I thought of taking a video of my band jamming but, i dont think anyone of us has the mood to jam. My sister thought of bringing the whole band to an outing this Saturday. She mentioned something about going to a park or a garden and do stuff. like what? Dunno.

And since when am i so committed to my band that i leave out all the rest of my life? My commitment to music and songs have made me neglect all my other attributes. Its hard to let go of something that you find interest in, until you realize that its not gonna take you far. All the words of sorrow, love, seduction and anger have been used up before i was even born. if i made a new sentence now, it wouldnt guarantee that im not copying it from someone else. Haha.

I spend the previous days by:
- Going out with no aim,
- Taking care of Qistina,
- and playing with my Starfiq.

The sweetest thing that you've done to me is, cried till i go nuts, drank the milk that i made out for you, burped like there's no tomorrow and puked like a Godzilla!! And you can still smile and ask for more milk to that. Haha. When you're old enough to read, read this.

When are we gonna take a picture as Sinners? Wanna go neoprint? hehheh.. I assume that Aqilah is gonna take us somewhere fun, we'll take our picture there then. Update me when you're done with the web page.

Alright, i got my bag pack, socks, shoes, books, files and 5 carton of aspirins. Term 2, here i come!

Dad, do you hate me?

Fortunately, he doesnt. Unfortunately, i made everyone in the world worry about me. Damn. When i got home, the first thing that my little brother did when he saw me was hug me. I pushed him aside. Then, my sister tried to hug me, but i dodged her.



I know that i wasnt at home last night and to the extend, you went to call my friends to ask whether i was with them or not. But it doesnt mean that everything had changed. Im still Afiq, still being ignorrant about many things, and im still alive! So, no need for the fancy greeting, no need to make me a buffet-like dinner, and dont treat me like as though im a problematic kid!!



The fight was there, i happen to watch it, the police wanted my statement, they confiscated my phone, my girlfriend got mad at me, and now im back home. sheesh..



Im still not off the hook yet, they had to check my phone to see if i happen to keep the video recording of the fight. Or maybe some other things. Truthfully, i used to keep a Hentai video inside the phone and then i deleted it away. But im still not certain that they will return me my phone. ARGH!!

Ever since we've met, I've caused you a lot of trouble. If i knew, i would have just took the offer and left Bukit Merah. But i didnt, coz i still love you and i wanna be with you. But it seems that, the longer i stay, the more im making you worry about me. I cant be the man of your dreams or a real gentlemen. I tried to be who you want me to be, but only to a certain extend. I could control myself for some of the things and can be a gentleman if i want to but I am wild by nature, i wasnt born in a castle and wasnt fed with gold milk. If this is bothering you then, im sorry for being me.

I shouldnt have neglected you and should've told you instead. Although its already too late for me to say this, i really regret being there when i should've gone home instead. Just wait fot the results i guess. Prison, here i come

AOS

Sore voice, droopy eyes, dry lips and hungry stomach.
I need a CHEMICAL X!

Man, today was definitely a crazy day as AOS left our prints at StoneJamz jamming studio.
We did a whole lot of covers, mainly Avenged Sevenfold, and i was screaming my ass of just now.
I dont have to elaborate, just go to youtube and type 'tingtongxiao'.

You'll see what i mean. So tired

The Kid

A new born is about to step into my life. Get ready for the ultimate craze! Argh!
I actually made up a plan to eliminate the odd one. Eventually it failed and i had to live with its irresistible cuteness. Yeack!

Well, she's not that bad of a little sister. Its been a long time since i've taken care of a baby and i feel that these old bones are not gonna co-operate with me anymore. WHY!?
So, i have to pass down my 'baby-ing' skills to my semi-human, primary 3, and still counting little brother. He is gonna take care of the diaper-changing, putting her to sleep, making baby milk, pushing the pram. Breast-feeding it maybe? who knows?

You might think "Ouu.. What a cruel, selfish, uncivilized barbaric-demonic like older brother he is. I was lucky that he wasnt MY brother.". Well, too bad little brother. Im gonna teach you everything you need to know about taking care of her and you cant have a say about it coz you know why? Im bigger than you. xP!

Well, i have my own cause-and-effect right? I mean, i dont want my own little brother to end up being a flawless skinned prince with nails that never touched a frying pan without thinking that it would bite! He has to learn how to be independent also right? But definitely i wouldn't push my brother to the extend that he has to find his own house to live in, get married with a grandma of 40 grandchildren (and counting) and find a job to support his dying wife la.. Im not that SADDIST ok? I just wanna educate that boy, teach him what is right and what is wrong, be a responsible little boy. Thats all i ask for, nothing much.

I really have tons of homework to do. Like, piles and piles and piles of it. Well, not really. Just a few pieces of paper only. Exaggeration. Ha,ha!
I dont have the slightest idea on how to do my art project laaaa...
My ideas are simple- draw a chicken, draw about it's life, and how it died. the end.
But my art teacher said its too plain!! i need to make it more serious and attractive and s#%t.

I guess i have to concentrate more on my drawing rather than my poetry and my songs la. So, Starfiq, im sorry. I wont get to touch-touch you for the next few months.. Except for every Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday la. hmm.. Shouldn't be a problem.

And also, I dont think i will be going to the Mentoring programme this week. Although its not that boring or stupid, i just dont feel like going this week. I know i skipped the previous week, but i had reasons for that. This week, nah.. not in the mood.

Hmm.. What other updates..

Ouh ya, i found this really cool website called putri-berendam.blogspot.com.
It is something like a guide to Halal food places that you can find in Singapore. There's not much content in it, but still, looking at the pictures of the food presented are mouth-watering. Heh.. Really makes me wanna feed on my fingers. Haha! Do check out the website/blog.

I would like to congratulate Ms Nur Qistina Mustika bte Mustafa (my little sister) for being able to escape the treacherous clutches of my mother's stomach and successfully being able to open your eyes to see the world. Alhamdulillah. Unfortunately, you had to stay in the hospital at the time being coz you have something to attend to at the hospital. Hope for a speedy recovery and dont cry ok? When you're old enough, write a blog on how wonderful your oldest brother is alright? Tell the world how good of a brother i am. Haha!

I would like to thank Ms Zhuliestar bte Jamal for giving me two capsules of Lensip-thingies. It helped me energize my body somehow. haha!